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Dear Jellybean,

I'm sick of my life - well lack of one! I've finished school now and long story short I picked the wrong education choice and it was too late to change, so now I'm at home until next September. I have very few friends and I've been in my house for months now, the friends that I do have have very little time for me (i don't expect them to they have their exams coming up I guess) and I feel so lonely. I'm sleeping in until 3pm to make the days go faster, i've gone up one or two dress sizes which makes me not want to see my old friends and when I ask my dad to watch television with me because i'm so lonely he just goes and sits in his room. I've become overly sensitive too, and sometimes what people say to me really, really stings and I beat myself up about it for a long time. I know that it all sounds pathetic, but I guess that's what I am now. I've been to a careers advisor and they said to look at this year off as an oppurtunity, but no one will hire me (i'm looking half heartedly for a job) and I just feel at a loss. I'm a young girl but I feel like i'm wasting away. I'm thinking of working on a portfolio to get in the good college that I want to (even though I feel like I can't draw), taking up reading again, and volunteering. I've rung up one theatre company and they said I may be able to go there for work experience in April/May so i'm really excited about that. I'm not thrilled that I have to stay in on my own for new years, the truth is I've only been out with friends three times in a whole year. I feel like i'm sinking and I want to change my life around. What should I do jellybean?

-The girl with no life