HE'S IN MY LIFE

by RB

Being friends with a guy is important. It gives you perspective, and understanding of the opposite sex. It's important, more important than people think.

I was going to homecoming with my best guy friend. Needless to say, I ended up falling for him, him not for me. Over the course of a few months, it turned into love. My first love, and I was ecstatic. The "I love you as my sister" thing ruled. I felt confident and told him how I felt. Friendship terminated. He got weird and distant. Though we still went to the dance together, things weren't the same.

For months he made snide comments. I made them back. Then I began to wonder where and what happened to the friendship I valued so much. Where'd it go? So I began to talk to him about it and he agreed. We fixed things.

Then magically, I felt my old feelings, but kept it hidden. Ruining a 'baby' friendship wasn't an option. He ended up finding out by one of my friends (which, they aren't anymore, of course, since they told not only him but everyone).

Then something unexpected happened. He came to school, saw me and smiled. No, he didn't and still doesn't love me... but he didnt back off or get weird. He was acting like he didn't know.

I'm in the process of healing, trying to get over the fact sometimes you just can't have what you want. But I learned something so important.

Sometimes it really is better to have someone in your life as a friend, than not at all. And I'm living that virtue...

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