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You may find it is enough to write it all out, rip up the pages, and toss them in the trash, as an exercise in letting go. But after 3 years of teasing, a lot of damage has been done to your self-esteem, and you may need more than that.

Maybe you could speak to your parents about letting you see a therapist (your doctor may be able to refer you to one who is covered by your health plan). Or you could visit a guidance counselor at your new school, to learn about self-esteem building exercises you can do, to help you you gain the confidence you need so that nobody can ever victimize you again.

Sometimes, joining new teams and clubs can be powerful self-esteem builders. Drama, particularly, has been shown to transform people's feelings of self-worth, because the exercise of acting out different personalities and scenarios, in a group of people working together closely, can be fantastically positive and wonderful. (I - a former shy and lonely kid, now a very outgoing friendly person - am a living example of the power of doing drama programs). So take a drama class at school, and try out for the play.

Or, if you are more sporty, go out for a team. Being part of a group of like-minded people, who value your contributions, and share interests in common with you, is a great experience to have. Getting involved in regular group activities can also teach you about skills and talents you didn't even know you had, and that can be a great confidence-booster.

As you go through your days at your new school, and build your confidence, also focus on being a good friend, and following the golden rule. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Never tease anyone, or make judgements based on outside appearance. Invite friends into your life who treat you with respect, and avoid those people who are only about the superficial stuff. Be the kind of person you'd want as a friend, and with any luck, similar people will gravitate into your life.

Good luck with everything. I wish you all the best. :)