I need someone to tell me it's over.
If you've seen any of my other threads about this, I have been "unofficial" with this guy since September. I've known the entire time that I've just been getting my hopes up and that he would never want to really go out with me, and I think things are done now. Things blew up at 4am this morning over facebook about things he said, things I've said, and how he basically doesn't want to go out with anyone. he said it's a waste of his energy and emotions because this is what people in relationships do, bicker and argue.
he didn't say we were over, but i don't know how things could ever go back to the way they were after he said some of the stuff he did. i know that i'm supposed to tell him to **** off but I'm so scared. he's not just a guy I like and have sex with, he's become one of my best friends. i'm just so angry at how unfair it all is, that he's basically the perfect guy for me except for his ****ed up attitude. i guess I thought if he liked me enough, maybe I could change him. but I feel like such a goddamn idiot because I've known all along that that would never happen.
Any thoughts, advice, whatever... i know everyone is going to be like "well we told you so, this is what you get" but i feel like i'm about to break down here.
Many have I loved, and many times been bitten,
Many times I've gazed along the open road.
Many times I've lied and many times I've listened,
Many times I've wondered how much there is to know.