tell me what y'all think
wrote on 1/3/11
I wake up in the middle of the night
I look over to my side
Not wanting you to leave my sight
I don’t know what I’d do if you died
I can't help the way I feel
I have fallen hard for you
I always hope that it’s real
I wonder if you feel the way I do
You wake up and look at me
I tell you to go back to sleep
As you look into my eyes lovingly
I tell you if you die I’ll weep
I don’t know what else to say
Except please don’t ever go away
wrote on 2/15/11
My razor blade will only cut so deep
Through the towel my blood starts to seep
I sit on the floor wondering how much longer
As I ask myself, “why cant I be stronger”
I move over to the tub as its filled with water
I stare down as the see through color turns red
I wonder if my parents are ashamed to call me their daughter
With yet another blood soaked towel, I climb into bed
I lay there and think, “have I gone too far?”
Wishing I drove off that cliff in my car
wrote on 2/22/11
I’m always looking to release my pain
Turning what’s emotional to physical
You may wonder why but halt I cannot tell
Since even I am not aware
But I will try and say you this:
Going back four months..
I’d lost my need to release this way
You may wonder why one person
Could means so much to me
I don’t know where to start
I'm not sure how to say
He still has a big piece of my heart
And no matter how hard I try
I just can’t seem to let him go
It’s not the head but the heart that feels
I tell myself that I’ve let go to try and ease the pain
But even my head knows that it ain't true
I know things have been over for a while
And even so I still have dreams
That she and I are on the edge
The edge of a burning volcano
He could only choose one to save forever
So let me just say
That I burned to my death
wrote on 2/23/11
During the day when I'm awake
The smile everyone sees is fake
I hope that one of these days
Everything will start to go right
But for now its just a phase
Where I'm stuck in the darkness of the night
I wish I could say what I feel in my heart
But I would have no idea where to start
I just with he could open his eyes
And tell me he’s seen past my disguise
I wish he could be here to help me out
And wipe away the all tears from my cries
I want him to tell me that he has no doubt
I wish I could know if I have a fighting chance.

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