"I don't know what I want, so don't ask me, cause I'm still trying to figure it out".

So this summer has been pretty full of changes, yet it still feels boring somehow.

I got my braces off. I got an interview. I got a job. I got my drivers permit. And so on.

I start my job probably next week. I still need to give them my banking information. I guess I'm kind of excited, but I'm also really nervous. I really hope I do well.

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It's not exactly the bestseller of the year. So here goes. Random thoughts I have just written down if for anything to get it out of my system. I'll probably write every day or every few days so if you read this, cudos, and if not, I'm glad you have a better things to do.

I've always been jealous of my brother. He's intelligent, great at maths and sciences (in face, he'll be majoring in them), well liked by adults, especially teachers, has many friends, handsome guy, and seems pretty

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It's about time-Lillix

It feels relevant. Sorta.

Ughhhhhhhhh.
I just...erg.

I feel like a hypocrite. I give all this advice and tell people things that I actually believe and think is good but then I don't follow my own damn advice. I don't know what's wrong with me.

Maybe the word is more...fraud.
Not only because of this but everyone thinks I'm so smart and I get amazing grades but I don't. I used to get really good

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Why does it feel like I'm having a midlife crisis when I'm only pushing 16.

We have to do self portraits in photo and it has to be of us doing something we're passionate about or is truly us, and I can't think of anything. We aren't allowed to do us hanging out with friends and things like that.
I'm not passionate about anything I realized. I'm not athletic or athletically inclined, I'm not artistic or musical or anything like that.
It's so bad I asked my mom what

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That describes how I feel right now.

So, I went to our City Hall today to hand in an application for this position that'd I'd be perfect for (I also have fairly good connections and stuff) and I had never met the woman I needed to give it to and when I did I didn't say what I meant to say and nothing came out how I had planned it in my head. Argggggg. It was awful.

Then I went to look for a dress and everything I saw (and everything I have seen so far) is either to

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