I finally did it!!!! I have finally moved on from all the bull crap that took away the happiness in my life!!!!

Anthony tried to come back. I TOLD YOU HE WOULD!!!! Here is a play by play of what went down

Me: Ivree told me what you said and I just want you to do me a favor. Don't come back I'm happy again. Someone makes me happy again. You built this and now you can sit there and watch what you created. You can say sorry as much as you want to but I dont forgive ...

Sometimes I wish I didn't look this way. I wish I wasn't pretty like people say I am. I wish I didn't get attention from guys the way I do. I mean sure I like the attention it makes me feel good , but I can see in there eyes they don't want to love me. They don't want to get to know me. I'm just a smash and pass. I sit there and I wonder why they don't want to stay with me if they say I am just sooooo beautiful. That they would do anything for me. They say they can make me happy. Then why do they ...

If there is something that I have learned these past few months is that a broken heart does heal in time. I don't think about him. I don't cry about him. I don't even see him the same anymore and that feels amazing. It feels like there is this huge weight that has been lifted from my heart. It feels like there is freedom and this whole knew perspective that I'm seeing for the first time.

Kay so I don't wanna talk about it because I don't wanna jinx it because I really like this ...

I was thinking this morning when I woke up what Anthony would say to his little twelve year old girlfriend when she finds out about me.

Ally( his gf)- Anthony...who's Toriana?

Yeah Anthony who is Toriana? Would you lie Anthony? Would you pretend I was no one? Would you say," Just an ex girlfriend?" or "Someone in the past." Would you pretend I was no one? Would you ignore the question? Maybe just maybe you'd get mad and walk away like you always ...

"Please don't come back...Don't play with my head anymore....Just walk away and leave me in the past....Don't remember me....Don't say my name....Just don't bother." These are things I would say to Anthony. I want that so bad. If he comes back I want to say those things. I just want to move on. I have let go. I realize now I was only living and feeding off of memories in the past. That's not a healthy way to live. I mean what's done is done. He's gone I'm gone. It's over and done with. ...