I can't crush on him anymore. Obsession is unhealthy. The lies are not helping me. I want to like a guy without all this crap.
I am making a promise to myself that in my fourteenth year of living, that I will not crush so hard and relax. Not having a bf is not the end of the world. I am going to have fun with all my friends. I am not going to care about what anyone has to say, I am going to be me no matter what. I am going to mature- somewhat.