My bestfriend [James], and I, kissed yesterday. And the day before that. Apparently it's weird because I think it's still awkward. To him, he said it's not because he recognizes this as "normal". I'm confused. We're not dating - I just got out of a relationship like maybe a month ago. But...could we still even be classified as friends? I mean on technicality yes, he's still my bestfriends and one of the people I trust the most. But I mean if I went and hit on another guy, and vice versa, ...

I just don't get how he likes me. We've been pretty much bestfriends for what...5 years now? I don't know it's like we know everything about eachother, and I'm just stoked that we're friends.

I know it could work...proabably would work...I'm just scared of losing our friendship. I don't think I could deal with that. I know it means hiding everything and all, but it's something I have to do. It's not worth the risk.