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Dear Jellybean,

In the area i live in, sports is the life everyone lives. Most guys play football or soccer and girls play softball or cheerlead (i dont even take p.e. class). I've never been good at sports because i dont like competition within teams (there is a lot of tht where i live, especially against white people and african americans - many people are racists), so i don't play anything. This year my friends have talking about their new year's resolutions having to do with their sports, and for the first time i feel left out. I'm a fairly good dancer (although its mostly street dancing/hip hop) and i can do some tumbling moves. Peers say i look like a cheerleader should (perfectly toned body, blonde hair, perfect make-up, big hair, ect.) although, as i said, i don't play any sports. The thought of being a cheerleader for the community team has occured to me, but the girls on the team are rude and put me down at school. I don't want to be anywhere i'm not wanted but dance class is no longer an option so i really want to do this, but not alone. I don't know what i should do, try to be the cheerleader within my group of friends and be the outsider on the team (my friends and i think the girls on that cheerleading team are jealous of our semi-popular status) or not try at all?

-Cheerleader at heart